I am now serving as the Stake Young Women Secretary. I'm scared to death!
I'm also still serving as the Relief Society 2nd Counselor. (Service in the church has been busy in the Mangum house these days! Nelson also received 2 new callings...in addition to the one he already had.)
I'm crossing my fingers that I'll get released from Relief Society any day now, although I am really sad to be leaving. I LOVED my calling! I LOVED the sisters I was serving with! Sad day!
To be quite honest, serving in the youth program has been the one calling I have always dreaded. I'm not very fond of teenagers, specifically teenage girls and all the mean drama. I guess the Lord needs me to have a change of attitude.
I am still terrified, for so many reasons. I know they say you should never place one calling as more important than another, but a Stake calling really does seem so much more prestiges...AND I AM NOT PRESTIGES! I have been racking my brain wondering why on earth I was even considered for this position. Often in the church, callings seem more like playing a matching game with names and callings on a piece of paper, but I have received confirmation that this calling was in fact divinely inspired...and I'm still having a hard time figuring out why. Not only that, but the women I am serving with are SO INTIMIDATING!!!!! I feel so out of place when I am around them. Not only are they all at least 10 years older than me and in a different phase of life, but they are incredible examples of righteous mother's and leaders ( I have much work to do to ever be half of what they are). I'm beginning to think the Lord put me here to learn, not to serve. In my setting apart, I was asked to fill some big shoes using some characteristics that are very much a dormant part of my personality. I was told to be BOLD, OUTGOING, and to REACH OUTSIDE MY COMFORT ZONE! Wow! That's asking a lot! I'm a wall flower, completely content to sit back and watch life happen.
But, a thrilling and surprising thing is happening. I am learning so much about who I am through the eyes of others! The Lord is guiding me to see that I am exactly the person He has always know me to be. A person I have always been afraid to see, because it is so much easier to believe I'm a nobody. Several people over the last few weeks have paid compliments that have been shocking to me, because they are about qualities I never would have thought I possessed. Quite frankly, it feels good to be somebody.
Overall, I'm terrified! Intimidated! Inadequate! and a complete fish out of water! Let the adventure begin!
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